REV. NATHAN G. LUNDGREN
"Our Legacy - Twenty Years of Heartburn"
In case I go wandering around, I better put that thing in my pocket.
I was watching the pastors this afternoon and they're a pretty mobile
bunch, aren't they? They sure come in different sizes and shapes and
styles. I think every one of them, including you lay speakers earlier
in the day are testimony that we're off to a might good start. I think
you would agree. We're at a good point and I hope that what I can share
with you tonight will simply add to that good start that's ours.
Speaking of a good start, I think it's great that we're up here. Anybody
agree with that?
Sitting down there this morning, I had the benefit of a fan, but I
noticed that there were lots of other people that didn't have that
benefit. And I remembered that two of my favorite theologians, coming
from Minnesota are Lars and Ole. I remember the time that Ole invited
Lars to go deer hunting as I do every November. Ole was such an avid
deer hunter that they went out in the dark. He got stationed right in
front of this tree in the dark - he knew there was a tree behind him.
He waited for the sun to come up. Boy, you know, it's cold in Minnesota,
but when the sun comes up in November, it can get mighty warm. There
hadn't been any snow yet and the sun came up and here you've got to
picture this guy in his blaze-orange insulated coveralls and his long
winter underwear and all that stuff. He's standing there in front of the
tree, the sun is beating down on him and the sweat starts to pour off of
him, and he's looking around, waiting for a deer. He looks down and
don't you suppose he's standing in the middle of a cow pie in the
pasture. And he called with this pathetic cry to Ole, "come here, come
here." And Ole came over and he said, "What's the problem, Lars?" He
said, "I t'ink I'm melting." I thought you need a little humor and
that's humor Minnesota style. Some of you probably thought you were
melting down there this morning. It's neat to be here.
I have to say it's a special privilege for me to be up here tonight.
As you heard, back in 1984, I made my weekend. I was then in Brainerd,
Minnesota. Some of you have heard of that. That's that vacationland up
in the middle of the state by that Mille Lacs Lake that on the map looks
like a half-dollar. The weekend I went to was down in southern Minnesota
- 200 miles away. I have to tell you that I wasn't very excited about
going. Some of those folks that are here know that. A couple of ladies
came in and they wouldn't take no for an answer. They wanted to use our
church, and they wouldn't use the church unless I had been through a
weekend, and that was the only one we could work in. And so I was kind
of trapped and I said, "well, okay, I'll go." I went. My sponsor was
an Episcopal priest and he said, "I will drive you down." Now that's 200
miles away. Now in Minnesota you can throw a stick and find a Cursillo
church almost. There are a lot closer ones than that. I said, "you got
to be kidding. That's the lousiest stewardship I've heard of in my life.
You're going to drive me down and come back and then come down and get
me? Foolishness! I'll drive myself down." So I did, but I had told
those when I went, "I don't know what this is, but if I don't like it,
my car's out there in the parking lot, and I'll just quietly walk away
and talk to you later." Well I got there and discovered here were lay
people who knew how to give and give and give. They gave love, they gave
grace and here were pastors involved who loved to see parishioners of
theirs and other lay people who were alive in their faith. I determined
when I went I was going to kind of lay back, let go and let God - and by
golly, it worked! And I came back feeling it was a good weekend. I
wasn't flying high, but it was a good weekend. It's always great to have
the chance after you've worked weekends - that's where it really got to
me. I still can't, on Saturday evening in our setting, I still can't be
on a team and head for those doors and pop into that beautiful setting
with the empty chair for Jesus without getting all choked up. I have to
stop singing. That's when it got to me - when I worked on a team. But
it's always great to have a chance to speak about something you believe
in. I wasn't delighted to attend the weekend, but it turned out to be
very special to me and so I hope as I share with you tonight that just
as we received palanca on that weekend what I might share might be
palanca to you. It's humbling to be here, and yet it's gratifying.
You just heard about the topic. Somebody suggested that I ought to
have put a TUMS at every plate tonight. I thought, that would be a real
slam to the cooks, wouldn't it? It might have fit the topic, but it
wouldn't have been very nice for our cooks. You might have wondered,
"What in heaven's name is he talking about twenty years of heartburn -
aren't we here to celebrate?" Each one of us is a composite of our
experiences and our responses to them. You are, and I am.
Let me tell you a little bit about mine. I grew up in a parsonage,
having been born up in northern Minnesota - not as far as Canada, but you
could see it almost from there. Grew up in a parsonage, my father was
a Swedish immigrant pastor who came from the old country at the age of
eighteen and came to Duluth, lived with some relatives at Christmas-time
didn't have any money for gifts so he went down into central park in
Duluth, cut down some Christmas trees took them home on the streetcar and
sold them to the rich folks up on the hill there in Duluth.
Then, at that age, he went to Gustavus and began one grade below the
kindergarten in preparation for college and ultimately seminary. I
finished Gustavus in 1960 and was committed to go to the seminary when
my dad and mother had made a trip to Sweden. When they came back, Dad
was behaving kind of strangely. We discovered that he had ALS - Lou
Gehrig's disease. That summer, just before I went to seminary, just
after Doreen and I were married, on August 1st my father passed away from
ALS. I still to this day don't understand that disease, but those of you
who are sports fans hear Kent Hrbek talk about it - his father died of
ALS, too. At his funeral, Dr. Walter E. Carlson - then the bishop of the
synod where he was buried, in Red River Valley. Dr. Carlson spoke on a
text that I want to have you write in your mind: Luke 24 verse 32, and
I've never forgotten that. That funeral sermon has shaped me since I
heard that. Some of you know that for us pastors it's much tougher to
preach on Sunday morning than it is at a tough funeral because at a tough
funeral people are really listening to make sense out of what's going on.
On Sunday morning they could be home listening to one of these TV
preachers who runs three preachers through as his first, second and third
points as I once heard done, but a funeral you're ready to listen and
this stuck with me. This is that Road to Emmaeus Walk - I bet you
thought I was betraying Cursillo. No, this is that road to Emmaeus walk.
You remember, that conversation between Jesus and these two men who were
so downcast that they hadn't realized who it was they were walking with
after His resurrection. In the course of that conversation, He opened
to them what had been happening. He told them, "are you the only two in
Jerusalem who don't know what's been going on?" And then it ended up in
verse 32 with this statement by the men, "Did not our hearts burn within
us as He opened to us the scriptures and as He walked with us on the
road?"
Dr. Carlson used that beautifully in my father's funeral sermon -
a pastor with a very thick brogue who often was disappointed; nobody
said, "I really liked your sermon," but people would say, "I just loved
your brogue." He did a good job with that and it touched me deeply and
so for four parishes now I've preached on that text, no matter what's
assigned when I've come in the first Sunday, and I've told them probably
the next time you hear me preach on this text is the day I resign,
because I think that's a great epitaph for a pastor: "Did not our hearts
burn within us as He opened to us the Scriptures and as He walked with
us on the road?" Cause a little heartburn - that's our job, pastors.
You know, it occurred to me why shouldn't this be true for you lay people
as well.
I got neat accommodations here. I'm about thirty minutes out along
the river. The nice lady came in last night and gave me a ride home and
gave me the keys to her car for the next two days and said, "there's four
beds upstairs ' take your pick and I'm busy working and in the process
of going home she told me about teaching a course at her church. She was
teaching a course on this whole new age theology because some of her
family had gotten involved with it. I was delighted to hear that kind
of attempt by a lay person because in the process of that teaching a few
hearts burned within them, as she opened the scriptures and talked with
them along the way.
My talk is really supposed to be about twenty years of Via de
Cristo/Cursillo. And how has it been successful or effective in those
twenty year? I submit that it's been effective first of all because it's
opened for us the scriptures. I don't know many people who go to
Cursillo who aren't church-attenders. They tell us in our synod that we
should look for people who aren't lost and wandering, but people who are
active in a church. In fact, I have to sign that they're a member of our
church to go in Minnesota. Most of us have been hearing the Scriptures,
we've been reading the scriptures, we've been studying the scriptures,
but there's something about hearing them explained on that weekend that
opens to us the scriptures and with all due respect to us pastors it
isn't what we say, necessarily that does that. The whole weekends open
to us the scriptures. The chapel services, the Eucharists that we share,
the rollos - all of them, not just the grace rollos but all of them open
to us the scriptures. The Bible enthronement and dethronement, that
special respect given to a book in which the Christ has been cradled.
That focus upon the scriptures and the Christ cradled in them is the
foundation of what we do. And therefore, the Scriptures in a special new
and direct way are opened to us.
I remember having received in my office one day from someone a
little card. On this card, it said in beautiful English (and I have it
stuck away somewhere). I had it up for awhile and then changed the
scenery, but it said, "Always keep the main thing the main thing!"
Always keep the main thing the main thing. Opening of the Scriptures is
a main thing we'd all agree, and Cursillo keeps that a main thing in the
way we do things.
But there's a second facet to it. Did not our hearts burn within
us not only as Christ opened to them the scriptures but as He walked with
them along the road. And as he walks with us along the road. I'm in a
unique parish: it's the old Swedish cathedral in Minneapolis. You heard
talk this morning as I introduced our bishop from this area about the old
Augustana congregation and the old Augustana Synod - the old Swedish
synod. The church I get to serve, and I find that a real privilege, is
the old cathedral church of that synod. Its glory days are over. It's
now lots of hard work and struggle, but it's still a neat place to be and
our people love to do Scripture study.
We can get fifty people crowded into a little room, so that we have
the problem that we had downstairs Wednesday night or during a forum on
Sunday morning to do Bible study - and that's marvelous! But we need to
remember that while it's wonderful to know Jesus and to dig into the
scriptures that isn't the full story. Paul Harvey has a phrase, "the
rest of the story." And the rest of the story is not just opening the
scriptures but walking on the road and that's something that I found in
Cursillo that delighted me. Walking on the road.
Dr. Herbert Chilstrom, back when he was bishop in Minnesota, wrote
an article in our newsletter for pastors and the article was entitled
"Ora and labora." Pray and labor. That's the same thought that Luther
shares when he says to us as Christians "Pray as though everything
depended upon God and then work like it all depends upon you, and
somewhere in that mix, God's work will get done."
A seminary friend giving his chapel talk quoted a poem that stuck
with me and that's - you got to remember, that's 28 years ago - 29, 30
even, because it was before I finished seminary, he was a year ahead of
me. This was the statement he used. "It ain't the 'igh 'urdle what
'urts the 'orse's 'oof, it's the 'ammer, 'ammer, 'ammer on the 'ighway."
The high hurdle is sometimes that discovery in scripture - that
"Aha!" passage that jumps out as we say, "Oh, isn't that marvelous?" but
the hammer, hammer, hammer on the highway is going home that night and
going to work that next day with the co-worker you can't stand or with
the neighbor who lets his dog run across your yard and water your
favorite fruit tree - that's when the high hurdle becomes incidental to
the hammer, hammer, hammer of the living on life's highway. The rollos
that I've heard always seem to share that hammer, hammer, hammer on the
highway and they relate to the learning that's taken place in scripture,
but I found and many have found on a Cursillo weekend that the kind of
bold unfettered sharing of the pain that's in someone's life - and not
in a "can you top this?" kind of Salvation Army or city mission story,
but in an honest sharing of "this was the pain that I went through before
I somehow discovered God had a hold of me and was able to let my life
into His hands. People honestly share their pain and their joy and the
way in which God has been part of that life and has worked through them.
As they do that, trust develops. It's amazing the trust that develops
on a weekend, and that's why as spiritual directors often we end up off
in a corner for two or three hours with someone whose finally found
someone they can trust enough to share that and I'm happy to say that I
notice that often it's the rectors and the assistants that are off
talking with someone. Why? Because in that setting, trust develops and
they begin to share with one another.
Why is Via de Cristo, why is Cursillo effective? The capstone to
me, in addition to what I've just said, is that those people are
authentic and they're believable. Somewhere in your stuff, I understand
you've got something about a "Moms-in-Transition" weekend. It just
happened that it was out of our particular community that a couple of our
staff said, "if this can do such wonders for people like you and me, just
think what it could do for these inner city moms who are twenty four
hours a day, seven days a week, with four kids and when they go to the
laundromat have to cart them along. What would it be like for them to
go through a weekend where they could come out at the end of the week and
discover how many people love them? And so, Moms-in-Transition was
brought to the council and they were bold enough to try it. And the
fourth one, I believe will be held at our church in March, and the
changes I've seen in the lives of the people who have gone through those
weekends are phenomenal.
The black mother who said, couldn't wait to tell me on a Wednesday
night at one of our Bible studies how after she went through her weekend
she came back to pick up her kids and took 'em home and she was a little
tired (some of you were, too, after your weekend). She had been on the
weekend. She took her kids and took them home and she was going to
quickly tuck them into bed after saying "Good night" and they said, "no,
we can't do that. We have to read a chapter of the Bible together."
These children had been adopted by a couple out in the suburbs - had a
holiday - and the children and mom and dad sat down every night and read
a chapter of the Bible and this Bobbie said, "I can't go to bed at night
any more until we read a chapter of the Bible together. These people are
believable". I've heard black and native American and lower income white
mothers talk about being in that group.
The black woman who said, "I looked in there - I was the only black
woman there, and I thought this is it. I'm going to get the same old
stuff again," and in the end she was telling the story of how by Saturday
evening, they forgot what color they were and had a fantastic experience.
She said, in effect, "I really am loved just as I am." People that can
love in that way are believable people. They shocked her, but it will
never be the same in her life because of it. Authentic commitment and
love and care are what Via de Cristo and Cursillo are about as I've
experience them.
I have to share a story with you. Many years ago, some fancy event
like this was coming up and I thought, "what shirt should I wear?" and
I realized that they were all kind of shabby. You know, guys how they
get kind of cruddy up here around the collar and don't look very good,
so I went down to the local J.C. Penney store, because I had loyalty.
I put myself through college as a clerk in the men's section at J.C.
Penney's and I went in and the clerk was there and I said, "I'd like to
see about buying a shirt." He was talking to one of the other clerks and
said, "well, the shirts are over there about the fourth aisle. Go over.
If you find one, bring it back. I'll be glad to take care of you."
That didn't sit very well with me, so I kind of wandered over there
and when he wasn't looking I went out the door and I said, "phooey, if
you don't care any more than that, I'm not going to buy your shirt."
And so I went down the street to Skogmo's - you maybe haven't heard
of that - we had them in Minnesota at one time. I went down the street
to this other store and walked in and I asked about a dress shirt, and
I told him about what I wanted. "Well," the guy said, "I think we might
have something to fit you." He excused himself and he walked over and
said, "here are the shirts and the prices are on them, and look them over
and if you see something that looks good, come back to me with it." I
thought, "what kind of salesmanship is this?" When he wasn't looking I
walked out of the store and went down to this third store.
I walked in and the clerk practically met me at the door. He said,
"my good man, what can I do for you today?" I said, "I'm looking for a
dress shirt."
"Come this way," and he took me by the arm and he walked me over
where the dress shirts were and said, "now what do you want?" I told him
what I wanted and I hardly got it out of my mouth and he had four shirts
out there, and he showed me these and he started to tell me about them
and the material they were made out of. Good shirts, quality shirts,
and I was so impressed I saw one of them that would fit the color of my
suit and I said, "that one will be fine."
"Not so fast," he said. "I want you to know that that shirt is made
of polyester/cotton - something that was long wearing - this was fifteen
years ago, and he said I want you to know that the collar and cuffs on
that shirt are guaranteed for ten years. I'd already said I wanted the
shirt. I said, "that's pretty nice - ten years." "Yep," he said. "Any
problem with that collar and cuffs, you bring that shirt back and we'll
replace it within ten years." Now, boy there's a salesman that's sold
on what he's doing, I thought. And so I bought the shirt. I've often
thought about that. Wow! A shirt that could be guaranteed for ten years
and you know he was right. That's the shirt I've got on tonight!
(Suit coat removed, exposing a shredded body on shirt)
Collar and cuffs are like brand new. I can't say the rest fared
as well. Now you know we laugh about that, but he taught me
something. He taught me that you have to be convinced about what
you're doing, and that's what I've liked about Cursillo.
I find people in Cursillo are son convinced about what they're
doing. They're like that shirt salesman. And finally, people who are
sold on Christ and are open to His Spirit coming in to them become
committed in the same sort of way. We sometimes come with a
preconceived idea of how that spirit ought to work. You've done it on
your Cursillo weekends. I've heard some good references to it and it
was Carroll this morning that talked about all that adiophera we add
around the basic stuff and sometimes we try to program the Spirit.
But you know the Spirit's awfully hard to program, isn't He? An open
heart has been the key to Cursillo as I've observed it. An open heart
on the part of those who come as candidates but more important an open
heart on the part of those who work as a team, who may discover and
learn more than the candidates did on that weekend.
Many years ago, in about 1973, those of you out of the old LCA
tradition, would remember a video, "Where the Water Leads Us." It
came out of the national church. That's another thing that stuck with
me. It was about baptism. Where do the waters of baptism lead us?
And are we willing to follow in the direction that they lead us?
I find more than anywhere else that in the Cursillo movement that
people hear that message and follow where the waters of baptism lead
them. So why has Via de Cristo and Cursillo been successful or
effective? One could point to many things. I've often said, as I
said to the bishop today - you people here in Atlanta get with him now
- having heard Carroll's talk this morning- that was the Spirit's work
- and discovering that one of his sisters is one of the active
Cursillistas and excited in Minnesota. I don't think it will be long
before the bishop here will want to go - in God's good time as people
remind me. But it's one of those places where if you work the plan,
it always works! Now people that know me know that I'm a free-lance
sort of guy. I don't like to work plans - ask how long it took our
leader to get a copy of my outline - he wanted the talk, but I've
never written one of these full in a long time.
Finally, we got him the talk - this morning, was that? I'm kind
of a hang-loose guy. And when I went to Cursillo and saw that thick
manual up there, I said, "uh, uh, Lundgren. This isn't for you." But
I've never been a part of something where if you always work the plan,
the plan always works. That's one of the reasons why Via de Cristo
has been strong. Good committed lay leaders - that's another reason
why Via de Cristo has been so strong. I remember the time in Tom
Heyd's church there from White Bear Lake when I was working a team
with a young man who's now teaching at a seminary over in Africa
somewhere. Jonathan Preus was on that team and I came late for the
team meeting and walked in and sat down and the team were busy doing
something - I had something ahead of time that I had to do. When I
sat down he leaned over and he said, "Nate, isn't it wonderful to be a
part of something where when they don't know what to do next they
don't look at the pastor!" Think about that, pastors. When they
don't know what to do next they go to their manual and they talk it
over and they don't come and say "pastor, what do we do now?" Good
solid lay leadership - that's part of it. Non-professional, lay-inspired movement and non-affiliated. Those bishops who serve now,
including your bishop here, received a letter from me on the back of
which I put a letter Herb Chilstrom had written me, as he did our
president, and in both letters he indicated that it probably would be
the death knell of Cursillo if we became affiliated with the church.
He said, "you're probably going to fare much better as a movement if
you remain the way you are connected with people that cross over, than
to become aligned with the church." A strong state or area council or
secretariat probably is part of that, too. All of the above are
important, but most important is that sound basis in sacred Scripture
for study, for discussion, for expanding one's mind in what God would
have us do.
Secondly, the walking of the talk on life's road - and not just
walking the talk, but sharing that as a witness for others and
finally, the commitment to Christ. Sold on grace the way my salesman
was sold on that shirt and wouldn't take "No" for an answer.
"Wherever two or three are gathered in my name, there I will be in the
midst of them," Christ said. And so the beat goes on. Twenty years
- I think back to when I was twenty - I still had a lot to learn. Now
that I'm 54, I still have a lot to learn, especially after having a
two week old grandson. I've kind of forgotten (because I had only
girls) how to take care of a little boy. I've yet to have my first
shower, but my wife hasn't been as lucky. But there's still a lot to
be learned at age 54.
May God enable us to keep up our focus on the main thing - His
love and His grace - for all people. May we not grow weary in well-doing. May God's rich grace be yours and mine now and always. And
may we continue for many more years to cause a lot of heartburn. God
loves you, and so do I.
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